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After starting college, I began to convince myself that this
site represented nothing but the life I so desperately wanted to leave behind,
giving obvious reason for my several months of silence. It’s likely, and almost shameful to think that
maybe I just didn’t have enough faith in myself to believe I could actually
pull it off. But I did, and with an overly proud smile I tell you it has to be one of
my greatest success stories to date.
Looking back now on high school and my senior year
especially, I am more aware than ever of all the things I was never able to do.
The more painful realization though, is the stranger I became as a result of bitterness
towards my lack of freedom. And despite the fact that it had been months since successfully
purging my life of my old ways, and self, I still couldn’t help but have great
difficulty revisiting such a frequently disappointing past. But not anymore.
For the most part, I have the amazing people in my present
life to thank for that. I have learned so much about myself since beginning
school, and never before have I been more at peace with the life I’m currently
leading, and most importantly, with the people who are constantly making it
better every single day. I really can’t remember the last time I was truly this
happy, though it's possible I never was. At this moment, I can finally say with
confidence that I am the person I’d always hoped to be all along, enjoying the
life I never imagined I’d be so quickly and generously given to live. I am so thankful, so very, very thankful.
I think I just might be able to update a little more often
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